Why I shook Tom's hand in New York...

 Why I shook Tom’s hand in New York is sometimes still a mystery to me. I know why I did it at the time though. I mean there was nothing I could do to the man then. He knew what he did and I knew what he did. He was acting like a child. I was being the bigger man. He was a coward for running away from his problems. He ratted out Gatsby to George Wilson. He indirectly killed a man. Yet, he still approached me like the world was the same. He brought up Myrtle. He still thinks Gatsby is the one who was driving the car. He is an ignorant man who only care about himself. I will never be able to accept or even understand his actions. I do not think I could ever bring myself to like him. Daisy and Tom messed up and now they are running away from their problems. This entire summer was surrounded and engulfed in drama, death, and disaster. Everyone was involved in one way or another. I feel like I am the only one who actually stuck around to see the ending. Gatsby would have liked it if Daisy mourned his death. I think Myrtle would have liked it if Tom mourned her death. Daisy and Tom are not that kind of people. They just keep moving. I shook Tom's hand because I know that he does not know any better. He is going to keep doing what is best for him. That is what people like him do. 

What I was feeling at Gatsby's funeral...

 What I was feeling at Gatsby’s funeral was utter frustration. Thousands of people came to his house for his extravagant parties, but no one came to his funeral. This man allowed people to eat and drink at his home without any form of invitation, but no one had the decency to come to his funeral. In the end it was only me, Owl Eyes, and Gatsby’s father. Not even Daisy or Jordan came. Daisy and Tom just left town. After everything that happened at the hotel, Daisy did not even acknowledge Gatsby’s death. Klipspringer even called asking for his shoes, but refused to come to funeral. I was so furious that I could not even stay on the phone with him. How could people do this to him? I felt completely alone and lost. Everything that had happened this summer was because of Gatsby. Whether or not he knew it, Gatsby taught me many lessons. He was a friend that I never had. His father told me many things about who Gatsby truly was. I learned that Gatsby was little dishonest in telling me who he was. I felt betrayed that Gatsby did not tell me the whole truth, but I was angrier with the turnout at the funeral. I felt frustration at society. How could people use a man like this and not even pay their respects. He is dead now and no one can do anything about it. This moment and this feeling will stick with me forever. It has shaped who I am today. After anyone met Gatsby, they became a different person. Some people changed for the better and some people changed for the worse. Gatsby could do

that to people. 

What I was thinking at the hotel...

What I was thinking at the hotel with Daisy, Tom, Gatsby, and Jordan was that something bad was going to happen. Tom and Gatsby were really starting to argue. I thought punches were going to be thrown. They were fighting over Daisy of course, but it was getting out of hand. This was not the place to fight. It was also very hot and uncomfortable in that room. Everyone was trying to have a good time, but Tom kept egging on Gatsby. I knew this type of argument was bound to happen eventually. I mean Tom and Daisy were both having an affair at the time. Gatsby was obviously in love with Daisy. The situation could have been handled a little more civilly. Jordan and I were just there. We were not part of the argument, which made the situation awkward. We both knew about both affairs which made everything even more awkward. Tom, Daisy, and Gatsby were losing respect as the argument went on. I really thought someone was going to get seriously injured, little did I know that someone would but in a completely different way. I kept thinking about when the argument was going to end because I was tired of all the drama. I did not want to see my friends get hurt. This conversation was definitely breaking down barriers and causing new wounds to be formed. Tom was bound to find out eventually. Daisy had to come to grips about Tom's affair. They need to figure out where they stand with each other. Also, Gatsby has this perfect image of Daisy in his head, but she will never reach that perfect image. She is too conflicted right now. Everyone needs to figure out their own lives.